a little too worried for others.

falling sick
nose is leaking
body is feeling very uncomfortable D:

not confident of myself cannot ah.

 Got this crazy idea to dye my hair something like this and chop it off before i come back but my hair isn't long enough to pull this off. Maybe i'll do it in october :) i need something to look forward to i think.
A bit too much time here. i've been starting to think of doing things i cannot do in singapore lolol

feeling a bit lost and dry, i don't really know why
anxiety levels were a little high recently.

Hebrews 11:13-16
These all died in faith, not having received the things promised, but having seen them and greeted them from afar, and having acknowledged that they were strangers and exiles on the earth. 14 For people who speak thus make it clear that they are seeking a homeland. 15 If they had been thinking of that land from which they had gone out, they would have had opportunity to return. 16 But as it is, they desire a better country, that is, a heavenly one. Therefore God is not ashamed to be called their God, for he has prepared for them a city.


http://www.kitesong.sg/2014/10/homesickness.html

It has been one month here!! i'm forced to be more alert and observant to my surroundings because this place is foreign to me. i've been so reliant on the people around me and i guess its a good thing they are taken away from me so i would appreciate them more when i'm back in sg.

i get quite upset that my friend is so blur haha maybe this is how others feel about me too.

i haven't lost anything so far and i'm proud of myself haha
it has been very difficult for me to talk to others because conversing in Thai is very very brain consuming. :|

thankful for the messages people drop me though i don't feel like replying at times.

break my heart for what breaks Yours
show me how to love like you have

my feelings and thoughts about God became truths to me recently. i found it hard to find joy in Him. Awake from these lies, and more focused on why i am going to thailand now. thankful for the reminder.

i was fearful of loving another person, fearful that my selfish desires would take precedence and i would eventually throw unnecessary tantrums. it was that fear that stopped me from ever considering or committing to anyone. but it is also that fear which reminds me what i should not be doing.  So much more to learn but i'll be taking a 5 months break :)

i have been focusing on the gifts rather than the giver recently. when the gifts are taken away, the joy is removed too.